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All over the place, all inside my head

This month is wearing me out. I have warring emotional states encamped in my mind, I have confused friends who are confusing me, I have a new schedule, and I have a lingering cough that has been here since the end of August (James has had a similar one for the same amount of time).

If the emotional states were all dark and gloomy, I would simply turn inward, sleep a lot, and make a point of taking a few extra candlelit bubblebaths, and would be restored. It's the trips from the underground caves to the sunny treetops and back again that are so exhausting, though, and exhilarating, and I can see why a bipolar person might not want to pay the price of losing the highs to get rid of the lows, but at the same time, I'm spending a lot of energy on climbing up and down.

I think I would like to go for coffee with a medeine sometime to discuss these things, because all the medeines I know seem to understand the kind of complexities I'm talking about, on an intuitive level. I would gladly seek the insight of a nicolle, too, but I think I need an in-person chat soon-ish, and I haven't booked a flight to Seattle yet.

Two weeks left 'til my trip to Context SF! I'm enthusiastic about going, but this will be my first completely solo trip anywhere (no baby with me, no one I know on the other end), so I'm a bit anxious about how I'll feel while I'm there. There are a few authors I've at least emailed with a bit who will be there, but they'll be busy, and I'll have to work my social skills and meet other people, too.

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bzdchris
Sep. 14th, 2007 03:21 pm (UTC)
Well, I'm not a medeine - sorry! - and wish I had more time for a FTF with you, but I am looking forward to seeing you and yours tomorrow evening!

I know that you are very comfortable with who you are, bright, sexy and talented in so many ways, but should you run into social paralysis while at the con, remember - ACTING!
nayad
Sep. 14th, 2007 03:25 pm (UTC)
That's a great tip! Thanks!
fullygoldy
Sep. 14th, 2007 08:43 pm (UTC)
For me, I find it helps to imagine I'm being paid to attend. If I'm there for my employer, it's easier to step outside of my personal comfort zone.
nicolle
Sep. 14th, 2007 11:56 pm (UTC)
Aww, I'd gladly supply insight, or whatever I've got!

You're always welcome to call me too, if you want. My phone rings for insights (aka coaching in some circles) many hours of the day, and I don't mind one bit. 683-6672 with the requisite Seattle area code... ;)
nayad
Sep. 15th, 2007 12:10 pm (UTC)
Aw. :) Thank you. I'll remember that.
medeine
Sep. 15th, 2007 07:07 pm (UTC)
oh goodness...my complexities can have minds of their own

but I would be more than willing to share coffee with you

I have off this coming Tuesday and Wednesday nights...Wednesday would be perfect, if you're so inclined (and I'm off work for a week 9/24 - 10/2, so depending on when your trip is...)

:D
I'll try to call you tomorrow some time, or you can call me
nayad
Sep. 15th, 2007 08:53 pm (UTC)
Cool!!! Wednesday would be great for me, too. I don't think I have your number, so I'll look forward to hearing from you tomorrow (email would work, too). :)
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